Mom and I had a "discussion" this morning about how I needed to be more responsible etc etc etc money-wise. Leading to me becoming introspective and realizing just how fucking pitiful and miserable my life is.

25 years old and living at home.
fully mediocre
no one will hire me
broke
alone
everything that i've done wrong, my little brother has done right-
and everyone worships him for it

and now i've got cramps too. dammit.

Mom tracked down a bunch of savings bonds that she got via work for me. they're only worth less than 75% of their face value... it hurts to cash them in for that little.
I'ma have to close out my 403B from school. don't care. i'll get ~ 4k from that.