i dunno what to say. except that things do not look good. grandpa had his surgery yesterday- triple bypass and valve replacement, if you forgot. he's still bleeding from the sutures- quite a bit apparently. he needed another mini-bypass or something because he was having swelling, and now stuff doesn't look good at all. we were being positive this morning because he was still mostly under, but he was responding to commands. obviously they put him back under all the way. mom is saying that if the bleeding doesn't stop, they're gonna unhook him from the equipment (except for the respirator).
i need a hug. no, i just need someone to talk to. but noone's around. but a hug would be nice.
dammit, now i have a runny nose.
i think julie's worried about me. she's been following me around, and just staring at me. i know, she does that normally. but she's doing it now, too.